I want to give up on life and die

Feeling I want to give up on life and die? Before doing anything read this first – You are not alone.

Last night I saw these searches below and I was so shocked to see all these bloggers promoting suicide. It’s very sad indeed and so I decided to write an article on depression. As I have been through this myself.

how I overcame depression

There is a bridge in San Francisco “The Golden Gate Bridge” from where many people who are victims of depression, jump off to suicide every month. Up till now, 1600 dead bodies have been found.

Many people have tried to kill themselves. Some of them were saved by many specialized rescue teams while others jumped and few luckily didn’t die.

how I overcame depression

Of all those people who didn’t die, even though broke all their bones, said the same thing every time they were asked about how they felt. They all replied with the same thing that the minute they jumped they realized that it was not the right choice. But it was too late because they were about to hit the surface.

They realized that life is precious. They realized that they shouldn’t have done that and it was selfish. The point of telling you all this is that Life is tough for everybody but you can change that.

The one thing that I learned in life was that nobody can fix you up, only you can.

You can take tons of anti-depressants. But If you are not willing to do something about your life, nothing is going to work.

I learned that if you are depressed or feeling down then you need to get up right now and make yourself believe that you are powerful and that you are strong. Even when reading this might seem easy, know that it is the most difficult thing to act upon.

Keep this in mind that life is harsh and it’s a struggle for everybody. Nothing is easy to achieve in life.

People will hate you, rate you, shake you and break you. But how strong you stand is what makes you.

Life is just battle for most of the people. Everybody has a sad story to tell and no one can even imagine the pain they or you went through, but we have to keep on moving without breaking.

I know challenging yourself feels too overwhelming, sadness just seems unbearable and happiness feels pleasure-less but there is a way you can get out of it.

I want to give up on life and die? – Solution

Simple I…

Channeled my depression.

how I overcame depression

That’s right. And It works.

Depression is just a negative energy that just keeps on growing.

When you are depressed you get easily irritated, sometimes you even just outburst on somebody on a minor issue. It’s just your negative energy being released in the form of anger.

At that point going for a workout would seem too overwhelming, but I pushed through it.

I started feeling all my negative energy, being channeled to do that very last rep in the gym.

My depression, anger, and sadness were all gone when I started lifting weights. 

But don’t get me wrong, the “starting” part was way too hard, I got to admit. It was very tough for me.

I was so unmotivated that I had to struggle a lot to push myself. I felt that nothing good was going to happen in my life.

When I first started going to the gym, I could only lift like 5 kg on a bicep curl and if you have ever gone to a gym you will know that it’s way too light but that was my first step.

I realized that it all comes down to me, Do I want to change my life?

Or am I just going to sit there in the corner and do nothing about it?

I just made a pact with myself that It’s not going to be me.

It’s not going to be my life and I am not going to stay like this forever so I kept on going. I pushed myself forward and I took that first step and made my way up from there. And then the next thing you know I was able to lift 55 kgs on a bicep curl one day. I was happy. I was calm. I was not addicted to anti-depressants anymore and I was focused.

But it all took me some time (2 years to be exact) and also there was a bit of an angle to my workouts, I used to workout with a “give it everything you got” attitude, you know, like using up every single bit of my energy into that workout.

And when you do that you just feel so much relaxed and happier afterward that it kind of becomes addicting you know like you are high or something, no kidding.

I don’t know what was the cause of my depression in the first place, whether it was in my genes since the start, or my personal problems or a mixture of both, I don’t know, all I know is that it all went away because of this and so I advise this to everybody.

It is going to take some time before you can stop being a victim of depression.

You have to believe in the fact that it will happen if you want it to happen and you have to get up for everything you need to achieve in life. You have to give in your time and your energy.

Get up and get motivated and channel all of your negative energy away.

It helped me a lot.

2 COMMENTS

  1. Right or wrong, Usman, I have always considered suicide as a cowardly act. I feel life is a GIFT that we should appreciate and live to the fullest!

    In the spring of 2015, I found myself in a very sad dark place. I think part of it was hormonal and the rest was just sneaky and came from nowhere. I was in this place about 3 months! I’ve never gone through that before, ever! I was not on any medications or anything, nothing bad was going on in my life, it was just as if this dark cloud descended and I could not shake it.

    Some of what helped me was I started up my Tropical Fish Hobby. You see, I have always had aquariums since I was a child. It had been 10 years at that point since I had any fish. I didn’t want to see any friends or go out, I didn’t want to talk to anyone, I didn’t even want to go outside (very strange for me). I had difficulty functioning each day, just doing my household chores. So, I thought about getting fish to continue my photography but where I didn’t have to go anywhere or see anyone. (I was thinking of a first step to get me back to myself; find something I enjoy).

    It worked some. But then, I found I was enjoying this hobby but still didn’t want to see anyone or talk with anyone. I just wanted to stay in my master bedroom with my fish, lol!

    One day, it felt really scary. I began to wonder, “Is this how I’ll be for the rest of my life? This sad, this withdrawn?” I just couldn’t accept that! So then I thought, “What has always brought me out of a bit of a funk?” Well, the answer is to visualize. I have a great imagination!

    I sat quietly, calmed my mind, and pictured within my imagination, the path of life I was supposed to be on. I then asked myself, “How did I get way over here, so far off the path?” The answer came immediately, “One step at a time.” I knew immediately that was the answer. So I challenged myself to visualize each day taking just one step forward, back towards the path.

    What joy I felt when just 3 days later, I didn’t take just one step back towards the path, I kept right on walking and got back on it! I have gone off the path since! 🙂

    It’s a choice as you say. Only we can help ourselves, we have to want to get healthy. If we don’t want to get healthy, no one from the outside can help us.

    I realize that not all people can make this choice, especially if they have diseases and true illnesses that limit their ability to choose. It is so sad to think of those that feel totally helpless and the pain is so great they see no hope.

    Deborah

    • Hey, Deborah,

      That dark cloud you talked about comes on to everybody.
      Life is tough.
      Taking the first step is the hardest. But once you are off to your path… all of your troubles are left behind.

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